These aren’t the feelings I am supposed to feel.
I never thought I’d feel this way on this sunny – great weather.
It has never been this gloomy.
Nobody really understands.
My happiness slipping from my fingers.
Yet, I am focused.
I wanted to see whether this is still the happiness I wanted for myself.
I’ll sit through it.
I wanted out.
Yet, I have nowhere to run but the insides of my shell.
I don’t want to talk.
I don’t want to see.
Finally, I just don’t want to feel.
I just wish I am emotionally numb.