If there is one thing that I am adept at doing is procrastinating. It has many perks but a whole lot of disadvantages but why do I keep doing it when it has given me a lot of disadvantage?
First, it allows me to feel that I am alive. Part of living (and not merely existing) is being always on the rush of accomplishing things. This is true not only to me but in my guess about 99.9% of people across the globe. Everybody has experienced not being able to finish things because they put them off for later and this is normal – we’re human after all. And, what luck do you have for being part of the 0.1% of the population who has not ever procrastinated.
Second, it is me. I don’t have to pretend that I finished reading 7 chapters even when I didn’t and neither do I need to be guilty of not finishing it all because I am aware that it’s my fault and nobody else’s. In other words, there is no need for me to point fingers at practically everything – the not so loud alarm, nobody woke me, I was too tired, and all other excuses. I don’t also find it necessary for me to displace my anger at anything or anyone. This is me and I manage things according to how and why, not when and where. After all, it does not matter how many chapters you can read in a single night but how many patients you can save in the end. But of course, I am not minimizing the importance of hard work in order to “become”.
Finally, it allows me to re-learn the things I have learned yesterday and make it better today. If I learn that nothing good comes off from procrastinating then I would strive to be better and finish what I can today. So, basically it is just a cycle of learning and re-learning.